How does he do it? How does he sit in his chair at night, before he falls asleep and be completely content with his life? His beliefs and his actions completely contradict one another and I am utterly aghast at the thought of being untrue to oneself.
Based off of what I read today - This is my synopsis.
Trust is the biggest issue of life. Can you and will you trust those around you? When someone goes out on a limb and tells you things that they may not be necessarily OK with telling anyone else - THAT MEANS THEY TRUST YOU. That's a big step for any person - especially one that has issues with trust due to past discrepancies.
In 50 years, when you are sitting all alone in the confines of a senior center, ALONE, you will look back at your life. Will you look back and smile? or will you look back with regrets? If you pass up every opportunity to pursue something with someone just because you happen to be in a different place - where your actions do not have to be accounted for - where is the lifelong fulfillment and satisfaction in that scenario? You meet someone, you hit it off…things progress. You go out of town - you think a few little thoughts about that person at home - and then you meet someone else amidst the adventure who happens to strike your fancy - but eventually you have to leave and return home. It's not reality to strike up something with someone that you might and probably will not ever see again.
In order to be fully completely happy with another person you have to be 100135781395% happy with yourself in every aspect of your life. Life is what YOU make it. Not how other people make you. Agreed - Kisses hugs moments all of those are completely and totally necessary to happiness.
When you're blinded by the life that you lead - that when the seas can split. You tend to look over the thing that are right in front of you. Why?? I haven't the faintest idea. But you do it. You know you do it because you told me so. Everything happens for a reason. People are brought into your life for a reason - its up to you to figure out WHY.
WE don't want to tell you who we've kissed, loved, held.. because that's our past. And frankly I don't want to hear about yours. I don't care who you have been with. I'm not them. Our past is simply that. The past. You can't change it, so why dwell on it?? Its not there daily to remind us that we were stupid in our past. All it does it bring up the old memories - the ones of hurt and betrayal and it ruins the future for that person.
These things are ones you write about. You tell of times of virtue and happiness, yet you think too deeply of the lie that succumbs your mind. What you say and how you act are two completely different things.
Here's an idea - Write another book. Write it for you. Not to publish but to review. (Ha it rhymes!) Look at your life in the long run. Look at the things you put yourself through. Watch that movie about love.. and the love you want. But remember what I said - Life is only what you make of it. You were given this life because you are strong enough to live it. One day when it all sinks it... you'll get it. It will be the light breaking above you example of triumph. You deserve it - you really do. But until you find the REAL you.. and you act on what you believe there will be no happiness greater than what you find today.
I wish you luck...
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