Looking Forward by Glancing Back

I was looking at some of the previous posts I have written on my Blog. I wrote one almost a year ago about love and what television does to our minds and hearts. I wrote with such passion and conviction that it made me wonder where that very passion is now. I am no longer in love with that person. I don't regret the things that happened because I know he was one of the ones who ultimately led me to Jesus; but then again I wonder where my fire and love is directed to now and how I was able to walk through each day without knowing Christ. I'm actually surprised I was sober enough to make as much sense grammatically as I did. I don't write like I used to. I don't have the passion to get my thoughts and feelings out there for the world to read. I have the capability for I have always been able to find the words to write whatever I feel, just not the resources. I guess it makes sense in some crazy third dimension - the times that were hard and where I was as lost as I could be, I was passionate about FINDING my way. Even as I write now, the words do not come as easy at they once did. It was like writing my DCC paper... Although I know the path and journey and rocky climb it has been to find Christ, it was not easy to sit down and try to put those thoughts and feelings on paper AND to make sure it all fit together to be 'graded' so to say.

I feel that somewhere along the way, I displaced my passion and fire for hopelessness into something that was higher and deeper. Jesus is now my rock, my savior, my king. I was definitely lost and unable to find my way alone. I sought things and people and depended upon those that I believed at the time would get me to the next day. God gives us second, and third, and sometimes hundreds of chances to find Him. He is always there diverting us from the path that we are on to His glory and grace. If it were not for the fact that He loves me and wants good things for me, I would not be here today. There is no reason aside from Him, that I am here. I have not gotten lucky; It has NOTHING to do with luck. I don't wish, I pray. I pray for a hand to hold - His hand to guide me and walk with me through my life and get to the life that He has planned for me. His plan is huge. Bigger than any plan that I could ever imagine. He tells me what to do in the Word and it is up to me to decide if the things written are to be followed. For everything He has commanded should be followed. I sin, you sin, we all sin. That is the fault of men. From Adam we sinned and will continue. But God knew this and sent his son Jesus to be the One to take all of our sin from the past and present and destroy it. He died on the cross for my life, your life, and my enemies life. We are all equal with Him and once we believe in that, once we live the life of Christ, once we die and are born again as a believer, things start to change. You notice a difference in your attitude, your passion, your fire and your eyes. Your light has been turned on by God. You live your life according to Gods plan, not your own. You look to Him for comfort and love, not to the opposite sex or drugs and alcohol. You can do everything in Him, sober and celibate. These things don't mean to you what they used to. They are obsolete.

If you do not know Christ, take the first step. Walk out on the branch and see if you fall. Look for a local church and get plugged in. If you have kids, bring them to church! They are never too young to know the glory of God. You may save them some heartaches and troubles many go through if they come to know Christ. If you are on the path with God but you haven't taken the 'next step,' what are you waiting for? Get baptized, volunteer, and get in God's game!!

If you have been waiting for an opportunity to know Jesus and you think this is your time, pray this prayer and then start reading His word:

"Lord, I have been walking blindly in my life. I know the only way to see clear is to know you and to walk with you. I know You have bigger plans for me and cared for me even before I knew You. I no longer want to live my life without You. I know now that You sent Jesus, Your son, here for me, to save me and to take on all of my sins. Lord, I give You my all. Make me a new creation unto You. Lord I pray this all in your Son Jesus' name, Amen."


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